So long, so long

Eversince then, I lost my last piece of faith in love that I was clinging onto…and today, it sealed the fact that some people will never change. And perhaps flying away for good is what I need *smug smile*

Just another day.

The birthday came and gone.
A special day always in my heart,
Not for the joy n merriment of growing older
But in remembrance of a special someone
Close to heart, whom i lost at the age of 9.
We shared the same birth date,
but little did i know that the 9th was the last.
If you are still here today,
you would have turned 71 .
Nonetheless,
Happy Birthday Grandma!
I know you’re watching over us from the heavens above…

I found this poem online and I would safely say, it says all the things that’s probably be in my head right now..

A birthday is just another day,
young of mind, yet youthful looks go away.
Another year older,
the world seems a bit colder.
Yet my heart still burns,
and for love it forever yearns.
Another year older,
I grow even bolder.
Life is for us to learn from,
as calculated as a mathematical sum.
Another year older,
hurting blazes now just smolder.
Letting go of past rage and pain,
living life and feeling sane.
Another year older,
a tear on your shoulder.
Life has not been so bad,
my tear is of joy not because I’m sad.
Another day older,
more pages added to my folder.
I’m glad of whom I am today,
I would not have myself any other way.
So don’t mind that I write my own birthday rhyme,
I’ve lived through my life up till this time.
I think it is safe to say,
that things will go as planned His way.
He’s got more for me yet,
It’ll be even better I bet.
Another year older,
and I am in His debt.
~Anonymous

map of life…

i never felt so lost before.
giving myself till end of Sept,
to decide which path i should take.

In Tribute to MJ…

In tribute to Michael Jackson who passed away, I’m posting a video of The Jacksons Variety Show where they performed “I want you back/ABC”. It was one of my favorite songs during my growing up days and it still is

The music legend may be gone but his music still lives on. Rest in peace, MJ…

You Are Not Alone

just let me rant…

Lately, i feel like my life is starting to get all jumbled up in a mess. With my life compass spinning wildly, I’m so lost about the road ahead. Which path should i take? Left, right or center? Yet again, I’m at another crossroad in life with decisions to make that involve my future. How much pressure can i take before i break down? How strong is my will to continue fighting on? I never thought that choosing a career path is this difficult. I’ve talked to people around me to get the best sound advice yet at the end of the day, the decision is still mine and only mine.

They say “take the plunge”, I say “swim or sink” . Life is full of challenges, it can break your spirit or it can make you stronger. I hope I haven’t lose sight of my fighting spirit. May some light shine from above, so I can set my heart to a path that I was destined to take…

I’m going to miss working in Raffles Place for sure

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*help*

One Math Geek’s Plan to Reform Wall Street.

This is great article I read off Newsweek.com.

Paul Wilmott is a 49-year-old Oxford-trained mathematician and arguably the most influential quant today, the brightest star in their insular, nerdy universe. The Financial Times calls him a “cult derivatives lecturer.” Wilmott has cultivated a loyal following of truth-seeking converts from the failed school of thought that the entire world can be turned into Greek symbols, plugged into equations, priced and predicted. He’s especially critical of the notion that math can forecast human behavior, essentially the basis of finance. “This,” says Wilmott, “is absolute rubbish.” As more banks got in on the game, the once large profit margins started to shrink. In order for banks to make the same kind of returns, they had to pack more and more loans into a CDO, essentially making bigger bombs.”They built these things on false assumptions without testing them, and stuffed them full of trillions of dollars. How could anyone have thought that was a good idea?”

For the whole article, click here > http://www.newsweek.com/id/200015/page/1

It’s high time that someone look through those mind-boggling formulas for complex derivatives. Half the time in class, I had ???? in my head. No better time for a reformation! Quantitative finance is really tough! *sweats*

No Boundaries – Adam Lambert

I’m totally in love with this song! Keep on rocking Adam!

Oh Adam ..!

I managed to catch a rerun of American Idol finals today since I missed the live telecast last wednesday. I have been betting my hopes that Adam would win this season. But when I heard the results on Wed from my teammate, I was utterly disappointed!
I think Adam has way better vocal range than Chris and he has a rockstar edge to it that makes him stand out in this season. In short, there’s a unique star appeal to him. Chris reminds me of another John Mayer or Jason Mraz. No doubt he’s good too. Just lack of that edge that Adam possess, I personally feel.
In any case, Adam is still my American Idol. Oh how can I forget to mention that his mesmerizing eyes can make any girl melt (me included ^ ^) He’s just so charming…*lost in my own daydreaming*
Oh Adam…!

Goodnight

relaxing weekend…

It’s been a long time since I have a free weekend, not busy teaching tuition and running errands Well, yesterday I took a day off to attend Sandhya’s wedding at a temple in Little India. It was truly an enriching experience, or as quoted by Julian, “This is uniquely Singapore!”
I so agree! Wedding ceremony and rituals started at 7.30am but we only reached there at 8.45am :p but that’s okay, we can come at any time to observe the ceremony. It was like a mini-NTU SCE gathering I would say, met fellow frens and coursemates.  After the wedding, went to town for my usual fix of facial spa treatment and signed up another package with another spa at a roadshow (spend money again! tsk tsk…)

Anyways, I’m one happy babe cos I’ve got my new phone at an amazingly cheaper price than I had expected. I’m officially part of the HUB Club! Goodbye to Singnet, you’ve served us well since 1997 So welcome onboard MaxOnline!

Since my iPod is named, “iGeekette”… My E71 shall be named “eGeekette”  hahaha!

On a side note, I’ve collected my race pack for next week’s marathon!

For your information, there’s a free Superhero Movie Marathon happening at the marathon carnival next Sat as well.! It’s open to public and it’s totally free. So why not, bring along your picnic basket and watch movies right under the stars You can come support fellow race participants at the same time (ahem…points to myself) hehe.. Check out this website for more info:
Sundown Marathon free Superhero Movie Marathon

Off to watch my korean drama !! *bounces off*

life at a glance.

As June is approaching fast, I’ve been active in sending out resumes and high on lookout for any suitable job positions. Since I’m pretty open to any jobscope (IT or non-IT positions), my applications are diversified. I even apply for a maths teacher position under a Maths Whiz company! haha Other than job-seeking, i’m busy planning and sourcing out for biz set-up. It’s starting to get more attention lately and hopefully that will translate to more business deals. As much as my head is exploding with plenty of business ideas, the two limitations at the current moment are lack of capital and manpower to see it grow big. So, that’s why I need a full time job so that I can channel my salary to the set-up. Many big plans, and all i need is to have faith that one day, it will all come true.

On a side note, my stupid phone died on me again. Thankfully, my service provider is giving me free cash vouchers to waive off the early upgrade penalty fee. And i decided, enough is enough..no more Samsung phones for now! I’m going to get myself a smartphone called..E71 Dad did try asking me to join him and suggests a BlackBerry. But i refused.
After reading reviews on Cnet asia website and GSMArena, this is the perfect smartphone! It has all the features that I want and at a reasonable price w/o blowing a hole in my pocket :p Now, I just have to wait for my voucher to arrive, hopefully by Tues so that I can get a new phone by mid-week. Goodbye Samsung U700, no more heartaches when my screen goes blank *gasps!*

Another long week ahead and it’s going to be a packed weekend. Looking forward to Sandhya’s wedding on Fri, the first for this year that i’ll be attending. I hope I can recover from this flu in time to enjoy the good food. *still coughing my lungs out*

Goodnight ~!